I have just told you. I have no desire to be around your "people." I have said that I understand how things were at home. I had to get that explanation from someone else. But if I hadn't troubled you in some way, we would not be having this conversation.
You're an antagonistic person. That's not an insult, it's just the sort of person you are. I'm not much different. I'm troubled in general by lots of things, not just you. But that doesn't mean you've done anything to purposefully upset me. It just is.
I don't know how to talk people I don't have an uncomfortable history with, not without saying something that causes offense or distress. I certainly don't know how to do so with YOU.
I'm probably the same to you, aren't I? Like a tuning fork. It's not the fork's fault it vibrates and calls to those things inside the metal. Those things are always there, the fork just brings them forth and makes them raw.
We have the capacity to hurt and upset each other just by existing. Not because of anything we do but simply because of who and what we are. Things that can be buried in the mind come to light because of the reminders. That's all.
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I'm just trying to understand WHAT the problem is. But I don't know how to talk to other people without somehow upsetting them.
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I'm just troubled.
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[And annoyed. And still trying to figure out what your deal is.]
One minute you tell me that I am being constantly antagonistic and now... whatever this is.
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I don't know how to talk people I don't have an uncomfortable history with, not without saying something that causes offense or distress. I certainly don't know how to do so with YOU.
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[Whether he tries to or not. Hell, even when he's ACTIVELY trying not to. Even he doesn't know where he's going with this.]
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I'm probably the same to you, aren't I? Like a tuning fork. It's not the fork's fault it vibrates and calls to those things inside the metal. Those things are always there, the fork just brings them forth and makes them raw.
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I have no idea what you are trying to tell me.
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We have the capacity to hurt and upset each other just by existing. Not because of anything we do but simply because of who and what we are. Things that can be buried in the mind come to light because of the reminders. That's all.
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What do we do about it, then?
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Fine. Then what DO you want?
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To not have these problems at all, but that's impossible.
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Too many things are still too fresh.
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[Even though he already said that and she said most likely 'no.']
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[There, why is that so difficult to say?]
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I...appreciate that, though.
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Fine.
[He should just end this before he says something idiotic again.]