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[envy_the_sinners]

[It's been a while since Scar has openly addressed the network. He has had little reason or want to.

But it's late, and he's back to thinking about all that's happened in the past few weeks, and things are more like they were back home than they ever have been. He's more alone than ever.]

I made a mistake, recently. It changed something that cannot be fixed. In retrospect, none of it is a surprise, but the loss has affected me far more than I thought it would.

[He doesn't know what he's asking for, or if he's even asking for anything.]

I never realized how much I didn't want things to go back to the way they were until they did. I would prefer going home. It would be for the best.

[Regardless of what going home actually means.]

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[ignisinfernale]

you got all the time in the world here
plenty of time to fix shit up

[ As scalding as it sounds, Mikoto honestly means well. ]

[envy_the_sinners]

[Coddling language would likely only serve to frustrate Scar, anyway.]

Things as they are now are for the best, and I have recognized that. Logically, I know that they should not be fixed.

I am mostly angry that I was foolish enough that anything could be different just because of this "new" life.

[ignisinfernale]

[ He does seem like quite the doting father but when it comes to things that need to Get Done, papa's not gonna be nice. ]

Don't beat yourself up for it
Things look different here but it sure as hell doesn't mean time stopped completely.
Whatever was shit back home's shit here and you'll have to fix it yourself
What happened anyway?

[envy_the_sinners]

[Beating himself up over things is one of Scar's greatest talents, unfortunately. That and being a drama queen in the process.]

It is difficult to describe.

[At least while maintaining some modicum of anonymity.]

The only details of true importance are that I went against my better judgement and made a bad situation worse for it.

[ignisinfernale]

[ He frowns at that. Really, this situation hits a little too close to home for his liking. But it's a case of been there, done that, after all. Everyone told him not to but he went and did it anyway. ]

Look.

You did what u had 2 at the time
Doesnt mean shit
Figure out where u went wrong
Apologize
See if u can fix the mess u made

[envy_the_sinners]

I always knew that it would be me, though.

And I have caused someone harm as a result.

I am nearly certain that I could be forgiven, but for that reason I cannot pursue it.

[ignisinfernale]

it aint over til its over
least you could do is give it a shot
they back home?

[envy_the_sinners]

No, they are here.

[Though he does have someone with a VERY SIMILAR PROBLEM back home... haaa....]

But their forgiveness is not something that I deserve. It is difficult to explain without going into the details.

[ignisinfernale]

[ Yikes. That does make things complicated. ]

you wanna tell me the details?

[ No pressure, man. It just makes it easier. But then again, he's never been an articulate one. ]

[envy_the_sinners]

Not particularly. This is anonymous for a reason.

It is difficult, though.

[ignisinfernale]

[ Yeah, he makes a good point. ]

none of my business to ask anyway
main thing i can give you is that you gotta work at it
nothing's gonna make it magically disappear