envy_the_sinners: (dammit.)
Scar ([personal profile] envy_the_sinners) wrote2015-08-16 10:58 pm

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[It's been a while since Scar has openly addressed the network. He has had little reason or want to.

But it's late, and he's back to thinking about all that's happened in the past few weeks, and things are more like they were back home than they ever have been. He's more alone than ever.]


I made a mistake, recently. It changed something that cannot be fixed. In retrospect, none of it is a surprise, but the loss has affected me far more than I thought it would.

[He doesn't know what he's asking for, or if he's even asking for anything.]

I never realized how much I didn't want things to go back to the way they were until they did. I would prefer going home. It would be for the best.

[Regardless of what going home actually means.]
unkinder: (☆ that I'll get)

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[personal profile] unkinder 2015-08-17 06:08 am (UTC)(link)
You thought you wanted something, and now that you have it, you regret it. Right?

Unfortunately, this world doesn't generally care about whether a person wants to leave it or not.
Edited (I should not be trying to tag at 2 am good lord) 2015-08-17 06:10 (UTC)
nullorvoid: (SIGH ♠ but your fave is so problematic)

[personal profile] nullorvoid 2015-08-17 10:59 am (UTC)(link)
[Ginti isn't bothering with anon; he doesn't see much point in it. If this other person wants to keep it that way it's fine, but on his end he can't really imagine that it matters.]

Going home's not really an option and if it was I would have left this place weeks ago, but if that's the case then I guess you're stuck with whatever you can get off of this thing. I don't know what you're looking for, catharsis or advice or what, it's hard to tell in writing but I'm guessing if you're doing this at all you want someone to listen or something at least because people tend to do that here.

I've got a lot of experience with people doing stuff they can't go back from, but I don't know what you want, if you want advice I'm not the greatest but I'll give it a shot for you, if you want to just wallow and have someone listen to you do that then I'm going to be here all day.

Either way, sometimes you can't plan for how you're going to react to stuff, even if you thought you'd be okay with something that you're not okay with doesn't mean that you're stupid for thinking it. There's a lot of stupid in this world but not being able to predict feelings isn't part of it, that's something I've had to figure out here for myself.
ignisinfernale: <user name=signontheline> ([...] | Danger illustrated)

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[personal profile] ignisinfernale 2015-08-17 12:40 pm (UTC)(link)
you got all the time in the world here
plenty of time to fix shit up


[ As scalding as it sounds, Mikoto honestly means well. ]
anexcitableboy: (a little bit broody)

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[personal profile] anexcitableboy 2015-08-17 12:43 pm (UTC)(link)
It's called 'life', buddy. I don't know what happened or what you lost, but that's just every god damned day of human existence. We all lose shit all the time. Important shit. You make mistakes. You feel shitty about it. Sometimes you hurt people or ruin something or mess everything up for everybody. Sometimes you ruin it so bad it can't ever be fixed and you hate yourself for every god damned thing you said and your girl won't ever talk to you again just 'cause of some fucking stupid mistake you made.

[This is hitting a personal spot for Jimmy.]

Anyway, then you pick yourself the hell up up and find something new. And probably fuck that up, too, because people always fuck up. But at least you had it for a little while.

And look, you don't want things to go back to however they were, just don't let them. You've got that power. Even if we've lost everything, we still got ourself. That's something I learned here from somebody real special.
nullorvoid: (BORED ♠ well whoop-de-shit princess)

[personal profile] nullorvoid 2015-08-17 12:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Like I said, I've got all day but you're welcome.

If that's the case though getting all catastrophic isn't going to help anything because you're going to screw up. People who are good at this sort of thing and have those sorts of connections naturally screw up all the damn time, sometimes you just kind of have to throw your hands up and accept that absolutely no one knows what the hell they're doing today and try again tomorrow.
ignisinfernale: <user name=signontheline> ([huh] | Fucking instigator)

[personal profile] ignisinfernale 2015-08-17 01:18 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He does seem like quite the doting father but when it comes to things that need to Get Done, papa's not gonna be nice. ]

Don't beat yourself up for it
Things look different here but it sure as hell doesn't mean time stopped completely.
Whatever was shit back home's shit here and you'll have to fix it yourself
What happened anyway?
anexcitableboy: (Hey oh don't look at me)

[personal profile] anexcitableboy 2015-08-17 01:36 pm (UTC)(link)
You're the one going on about how you fucked up and can't fix it and you wanna go home. That's pretty damn dramatic, you know.

Oh bullshit. The childish point of view is that no matter what, everything will be okay and you can fix anything you break. But you can't. It sucks. But it's just how things are. What good does moaning and weeping over it and examining it real close do? It never did me any damn good, or anybody else I ever saw fall into that pit.

Sorry I'm not candy coating anything, but you sound like you could a dose of the hard reality coming from somewhere that wasn't your own head. And if all you got from what I said was 'life is awful, suck it up', you just wanna be upset and miserable.
anexcitableboy: (guess i screwed up)

[personal profile] anexcitableboy 2015-08-17 02:07 pm (UTC)(link)
...if you don't even want to try to fix it, why are you so beat up over it? If it's not worth trying to put back, why's it even worth being sad over? I'm not being a rhetoric ass, I'm asking you honest questions here.

Buddy, if you don't try and get up and keep going, what the hell other option is there? There isn't one. At least not one that won't hurt everybody you give any shits about at all.

I don't think you're some fool, I think you're a messed up guy who's in a lot of pain and thrashing around and getting defensive when he's not hearing what he wants to hear right now.
unkinder: (☆ but I've seen despair here)

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[personal profile] unkinder 2015-08-17 03:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[Well then.]

What do you intend to do about it, then?
unkinder: (☆ out there somewhere)

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[personal profile] unkinder 2015-08-18 12:40 am (UTC)(link)
If this is a situation that truly cannot be fixed, then there's no point in concerning yourself with it any longer, even if it is your own fault. You'll suffer far less heartache, that way.

[Which ignores the fact that maybe Scar can't help but worry and feel bad about it.]
unkinder: (☆ and I don't know what it is I'll find)

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[personal profile] unkinder 2015-08-20 04:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[If nothing else, Nagi can understand struggling to distract yourself. It's easy to get into a rut here. It;s...very routine.]

Is discussing it here helping you at all, then?
nullorvoid: (TCH ♠ maybe i just really hate your face)

[personal profile] nullorvoid 2015-08-20 11:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[It's fortunate, maybe, that this is over text; it keeps Scar from hearing the light swear that got out of him, anyway.

Damn it.]


I'm not going to try to be cute and say that there's no such thing as normal or anything, I've met all sorts of people and there's definitely some standard for "normal" just like there's a standard for "weird as hell" and there's a standard for "messed up", I get all that and I'm not going to be all twee at you and tell you that everything's fine if it's not, because people who aren't normal can usually tell that they aren't and arguing otherwise is just going to waste our time.

There's nothing "fundamentally wrong" with you, though. People can be weird or messed up, sure, and sometimes that goes back a long way. But people can't be fundamentally wrong, and that includes you.
anexcitableboy: (Hey oh don't look at me)

[personal profile] anexcitableboy 2015-08-21 02:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[Jimmy sighs. Okay, maybe he's making too many assumptions and he's talking to a kid. The whole 'nothing anyone can say can help' attitude might just be a case of not knowing better.]

Hey, come on, there's no need for all that. You've obviously got something you want to make better than it is and you don't know how. So you asked for help. In a kind of not-productive way, but whatever. Maybe you don't know how to do that, lots of people don't. But that doesn't mean you should have kept your mouth shut.

And let me tell you a little something I learned the hard way: until it's over and done, nobody ever knows what the right or wrong choice is.
ladywithnovoice: (sassybird - spiritleaf) (I don't know where I am. I made)

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[personal profile] ladywithnovoice 2015-08-21 06:13 pm (UTC)(link)
How do you know that it can't be fixed?

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